The Most Natural Thing But Nothing You'd Expect

There's a few things I am gonna talk about in this post and I'll try to organize them into neat little paragraphs so you can choose what you want to read and what you might find boring.

First thing is that I had a new realization today. Okay, well maybe not totally new, but it just kind of hit me in a more real way than it has before.

If I had to get my mothers permission to do everything I wanted to do I would never, ever, leave this house. The thing that made me realize this today was that I went to Atlantic Edge, which is a local dive shop, and checked out their Deep Water Diver Certification course. Now, since I was 16 I had a dream that one day I would dive the expanse of the Great Barrier Reef. This will require me to have an Advanced, and Technical Diving Certification. The first step is the Deep Water Cert though, and well, it costs about $500 for just the certification. The equipment I'll need beyond getting the cert to, you know, use it, is near 2 grand that I Just don't have right now. Anyway, I'm getting off topic...I called my Mom to tell her that I went to check out this class because I really wanted to get my certification before we go to Hawaii for my 25th Bday in January. (Note: My birthday is actually in August, but we're going when it's cold here. And for the record I'll be 25 NEXT year, not this one.) She huffed, and then said "never mind" when I asked what she was huffing about. To which then I demanded to know what and she said "I just never know what you're going to come up with next." .....Uh. What? I didn't argue with her, and explained that I just wanted to tell her about the class, and wasn't asking for money, but was more telling her that "hey, I'm going to do this when I can afford it, and I hope it's before we go to Hawaii." Instead she took me telling her about it as "I wanna do this certification, and I expect you to pay for it." That was NOT what I was getting at.

It really made me realize that my dear ol' momma knows little to nothing about me. Which is sad, but I also prefer it that way. She's not the most progressive, or forward thinking individual. Not on the same level as I am in terms of social acceptance, and morals. If she did know anything about me, or even listened kind of when I talked to her, she would know that I've had the goal of diving the GBR for the past 6-7 years. The thing that kind of was more of a punch in the stomach was "I'm not paying $500 for a certification you'll use once in 10 years." She really, really doesn't know me, does she? So critical, and accusing. It's very frustrating.

Moving on from that I'm going to do a list section of my blog called "Books I'm Reading Now" and then after I'm done reading them I will (most likely) write a small review on them. Kinda a little crappy, I liked this book! or This book fucking sucked! Yay!

Books I'm Reading Now:
Girls to the Front: The True Story of the Riot Grrrl Revolution. 
Atlas Shrugged
Cunt

2 out of 3 of those books are feminist/books about feminism. I'm sure you can guess which ones. Ha.
Atlas Shrugged is a book that is uber long, and I've discovered most people have read, and I actually wanna see what all the hoopla is about.

Third and lastly, I started a new sketch book today! I don't care that my drawings suck in it cause it's my book, but on occasion I'll post some pictures from it on here. I figured since I did 3 drawings tonight that I'm decently pleased with I'll just share them all. Shit, for all I know the next few pages might be full of scribbles, stars, and hearts. Just depends on if I'm feeling inspired to draw or not.

"City Blind"

"American Economy"

"Eh? Lion"